| Foreword |
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| Introduction |
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Chapter 1 The Beloved Son |
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1 | (14) |
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February 7, 2000 -- Raising Johnny by Laura |
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1 | (5) |
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February 7, 2000 -- John's 2019 Eulogy: Raising Johnny |
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6 | (3) |
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February 7, 2000 -- James' 2019 Eulogy: Growing Up with Johnny |
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9 | (1) |
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February 7, 2000 -- Meagan's 2019 Eulogy: Growing Up with Johnny |
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10 | (2) |
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May 10, 2009 -- Mothers Day Poem by Johnny |
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12 | (1) |
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January 10, 2010 -- Baptism |
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13 | (2) |
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Chapter 2 The Teenage Years |
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15 | (40) |
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April 20, 2014 -- Mom/Dad Agreement |
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23 | (3) |
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September 1, 2014 -- First High School Party |
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26 | (2) |
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September 1, 2015 -- Concentrates Arrive at School |
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28 | (6) |
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September 1, 2016 -- Junior Year |
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34 | (16) |
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February 7, 2017 -- Updated Contract |
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50 | (2) |
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August 11, 2017 -- First Semester of Senior Year |
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52 | (3) |
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55 | (22) |
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September 27, 2017 -- Ultimatum |
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55 | (2) |
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January 16, 2018 --Second Semester of Senior Year |
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57 | (3) |
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March 1, 2018 --Moves Out |
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60 | (7) |
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May 1, 2018 --Can't Make Rent |
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67 | (3) |
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May 21, 2018 --Steals Our Dog |
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70 | (1) |
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May 24, 2018 --Criminal Mischief |
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71 | (6) |
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77 | (22) |
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August 14, 2018 -- Trashes His Room |
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77 | (1) |
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August 15, 2018 --University #1 |
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78 | (1) |
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August 30, 2018 -- Suicidal Text |
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79 | (1) |
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August 31, 2018 --First Mental Hospital |
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80 | (9) |
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September 12, 2018 -- Finding Treatment |
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89 | (4) |
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October 15, 2018 --Recovery |
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93 | (6) |
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99 | (30) |
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January 8, 2019 --University #2 |
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99 | (1) |
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April 5, 2019 --Middle of the Night Break |
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100 | (7) |
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April 20, 2019 -- Arrested and Admitted |
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107 | (4) |
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April 25, 2019 -- Urban Peak |
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111 | (6) |
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April 30, 2019 -- Back to UNC |
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117 | (4) |
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May 6, 2019 -- Public Outlets |
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121 | (2) |
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May 12, 2019 -- Mother's Day Fiasco |
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123 | (6) |
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Chapter 6 The Rise And Fall |
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129 | (28) |
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May 15, 2019 -- New House--Again |
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129 | (5) |
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134 | (3) |
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August 1, 2019 -- Happy Days with Billy and Beagles |
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137 | (3) |
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August 16, 2019 --University #3 |
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140 | (9) |
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August 29, 2019 -- Old Bad-News Derailer Girlfriend |
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149 | (3) |
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September 14, 2019 -- To-Do, Bucket, and Life Lists |
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152 | (5) |
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157 | (36) |
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October 1, 2019 -- Brain Treatment |
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157 | (5) |
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October 12, 2019 --The Dab That Broke Him |
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162 | (6) |
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October 23, 2019 -- Late-Night Condo Visit |
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168 | (4) |
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November 13, 2019 -- Cannabis Withdrawal Again |
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172 | (1) |
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November 14-16, 2019 -- Johnny's Journals |
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173 | (3) |
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November 17, 2019 -- Johnny's Warning |
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176 | (3) |
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November 18, 2019 --Red Robin |
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179 | (2) |
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November 19, 2019 --The Day Before |
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181 | (2) |
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November 20, 2019 -- Death Day |
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183 | (5) |
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November 21, 2019 --The Call in the Night |
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188 | (5) |
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193 | (26) |
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November 21, 2019 --The Morning After |
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193 | (5) |
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November 22, 2019 -- The Next Few Days |
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198 | (1) |
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November 25, 2019 -- Inurnment |
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199 | (3) |
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December 9, 2019 -- The Memorial Service |
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202 | (6) |
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December 12, 2019 -- Notes and Visits |
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208 | (5) |
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December 20, 2019 -- Signs of Suicide |
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213 | (3) |
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December 25, 2019 -- Advice for the Grieving |
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216 | (3) |
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219 | (16) |
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January 1, 2020 -- Lessons Learned |
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219 | (3) |
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January 20, 2020 --Gifts and Regrets |
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222 | (5) |
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February 7, 2020 -- 20th Birthday in Maui |
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227 | (2) |
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February 20, 2020 --Godwinks |
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229 | (3) |
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February 21, 2020 --Eye Donor |
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232 | (2) |
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April 20, 2020 -- 420 and 710 Days |
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234 | (1) |
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235 | (44) |
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Let's Review -- How Can Marijuana Harm Your Child? |
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235 | (2) |
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What Are Cannabinoids, Exactly? |
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237 | (1) |
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Adolescent Brain Development |
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238 | (7) |
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245 | (8) |
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Marijuana, Psychosis, and Schizophrenia |
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253 | (4) |
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Marijuana Leads to Other Drug Use |
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257 | (3) |
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260 | (13) |
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273 | (6) |
| Epilogue |
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279 | (4) |
| Acknowledgments |
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283 | (4) |
| About The Author |
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287 | (2) |
| Afterword |
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289 | (5) |
| Endnotes |
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