'A courageous, honest painful personal account of what goes on in Israel to silence dissent and to curb freedom of thought and expression' -- Mariam C. Said 'In this long-awaited intellectual autobiography, Ilan Pappe, Israel's most important critical historian charts the real road map to Israel's ideological dismantling and to reconciliation with the Palestinians via the non-violent Boycott, Divestment and Sanctions campaign' -- Ronit Lentin, Head of Sociology, Trinity College Dublin 'Pappe takes us through his own development from child of a solid zionist family into a historian in conflict with his own society's view of its past. He describes this intellectual and moral journey in the measured tone of an academic, but also with his customary humanistic sensitivity to the suffering so many ignore' -- Allan Cameron, Writer and Translator 'In this remarkable intellectual history and autobiography, Ilan Pappe shows why he changed his mind from the Zionist consensus, and how he resisted Zionist pressure to deny his findings and his conscience. His work shines with steadfastness, humour, and hope' -- Professor James Holstun, University of Buffalo, New York