Fearing she is suffering from an existential crisis when her creativity becomes blocked, talented artist Sarah confronts visions of her past and future selves before awakening to the devastatingly unoriginal brokenness of her parents toxic marriage. By the award-winning author of I Crawl Through It. Simultaneous eBook. A talented 16-year-old artist slowly discovers the history of domestic violence behind why her brother left the family years earlier and why she suddenly cannot make art-- When Sarah, a talented artist, finds her creativity blocked, she confronts visions of her past and future selves before realizing the truth of her parents marriage. A heartbreaking story of a talented teenage artists surreal awakening to the horrifically unoriginal brokenness of her family from critically acclaimed award-winner A.S. King.Sarah cant draw. This is a problem, because as long as she can remember, she has "done the art." She thinks shes having an existential crisis. And she might be right; she does keep running into past and future versions of herself as she explores the urban ruins of Philadelphia. Or maybe shes finally waking up to the tornado that is her family, the tornado that six years ago sent her once-beloved older brother flying across the country for a reason she cant quite recall. After decades of staying together "for the kids" and building a family on a foundation of lies and violence, Sarahs parents have reached the end. Now Sarah must come to grips with years spent sleepwalking in the ruins of their toxic marriage. As Sarah herself often observes, nothing about her pain is remotely original and yet it still hurts. Insightful, heartbreaking, and ultimately hopeful, this is a vivid portrait of everyday abuse and survival that will linger with readers long after the last page.